I haven’t been posting much lately because my mind has been wandering incessantly for the past month. I’m not going to lie, I’m happy as hell working for myself and owning my time completely. Yet, with that has come the need to want to constantly do more, produce more, come up with ideas and go, go, go. I got to the point in which I had to sit back and ask myself, why the rush? Given that I no longer have a traditional “9 to 5” or job title, I started to realize that this feeling I had of not doing enough was me trying to prove myself. I can be extremely hard on myself. I’ll win 9 times, lose once and make that one loss the center of my universe for an unhealthy amount of time. So with this entrepreneurial career shift I felt my life was starting from scratch — when in fact, I had finally closed one chapter for good and moved on to a place in my life I had worked hard to achieve.
The days leading up to my birthday always prompt me to reflect on the past year. However, with this being my 29th I felt the need to reflect on my twenties as a whole. And I realized I’ve accomplished quite a lot, in my career and personal life! One thing that stood out to me was that when I first moved to New York my goal was to be the head of public relations for a luxury fashion brand — which I happened to accomplish (with some bumps along the way) by the age of 27. Reminiscing on this gives me so much pride, but more so it proves that what you manifest will actually come true. In this instance, it ended up not being what I wanted, but it pushed me to look deeper into where I truly see my path being.
My goal as I enter year 29 is to not be so hard on myself. I’ve already proven to myself that I can accomplish exactly what I set my mind to. A year ago today I had a bigger salary, but this year I have my own business, freedom to be creative and dictate my time. This is the first time since childhood I’ve felt the sky’s the limit, time I started acting like it.