Thoughts As I Enter My 30s

As much as I’ve beaten myself up along the way, my 20s were pretty epic. I made a lot of mistakes, but that also means I’ve learned a lot of lessons. I’m in a completely different place than I envisioned myself being at this age, and I actually feel okay with that because I finally feel fulfilled.

I spent a lot of my 20s searching for this fulfillment. Whether that was through a deadbeat relationship, high-stress/low-benefit jobs just for the title, or people-pleasing in an attempt to strengthen friendships–I kept looking for it in people and things outside of myself. My sense of fulfillment didn’t begin to actualize until I started leaning into self-acceptance. Accepting not only who I am, but the way I feel, my desires, and the fact that I don’t need to have it all figured out.

From self-care trial and error, therapy sessions, heartbreaks, heartaches, friendship breakups, and makeups, I finally learned that the best way to move forward, is to first look inward. I’ve spent the past few years practicing deep introspection and it’s gotten me farther personally and professionally than I could have imagined.

Nevertheless, I’m grateful for all the hiccups and turn-ups (ha!) of my 20s. And to be honest, I know they won’t end here. As I step into my 30s, I feel optimistic and wide-eyed. It’s as though the life I truly desired is unfolding and I’m ready to accept all it has to offer. Cheers to this new chapter, I look forward to taking you on this journey with me.