Don’t Let This Time Pass You By

Last week Friday was our 4 month pediatrician check-up for Shai, and it was ah-mazing.

A world of a difference compared to our appointments during those early days. In more ways than one. Shai didn’t go in there screaming, his measurements were great, and despite being sleep deprived I felt really good as well.

I mentioned in a previous newsletter that postpartum depression hit me hard. And over the past few months, I’ve fought back against it by finding ways to clear the fog. But my biggest motivator was the fact that I would never, ever get these early days back.

Shai will never again be as small as he is. We won’t be first time parents again. And I didn’t want to finally wake up from this a year or more from now feeling like I wasn’t actually present. So, I did the work.

I started therapy again, I also checked back in with my psychiatrist for medication, I opened up to everyone around me and became transparent about how I was feeling. I became more proactive about my wellbeing and doing little things that made me feel more like me, to help boost my morale.  I took (and still take) steps daily to tend to me.

I didn’t sit idly by and wait or hope that some day I’d be out of this funk. I clawed myself out—tooth and nail.

And that’s what I want you to do too. Fight back. Press forward and do all you can to help yourself to feel better and do better. You deserve to experience life right now. You deserve to savor every beautiful moment of your life. because without today there is no tomorrow. Which makes right now the most important part of your journey.

xo, Aisha Beau