Here’s Your sign to surrender

I missed you. Truly. I hope this year has been good to you so far? And despite the world around us, you’ve been able to find some peace.  

Maternity leave is over and your girl is back in the saddle!

For the first time in my adult life, I hit pause on my career for an extended period of time and, yeah, it was much needed. Yet, I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable.

My dreams are big and this list of goals I’ve got? Long, af. So, taking a break for me often comes with a lot of guilt. But this was one of those situations where I literally had no choice but to surrender. I was giving birth to an actual child, after all, LOL.

These past 3 months have felt like a lifetime. Motherhood and postpartum depression swept in and scooped me up. I cried more tears (both happy and sad) than I have in a while and found myself cracked wide open in a way that let’s me know I’ll never be the same again.

I’m still trying to wrap my head around this next iteration of me and the life I plan on leading.

One things for certain though, that word surrender has my life in a chokehold right now. I’ve been told to sit down and rest—mentally and physically, at every turn. So, I’m finally taking heed.

During our last session, my therapist shared a hilarious but very real quote with me, something along the lines of, “if you have one foot in tomorrow, and another in the past—then you’re just peeing all over today.” And that couldn’t be more real. Life is for living in the here and now.

So, here I am. Making my 2025 debut and doing so from a space of surrender.

The thing about surrendering is, it’s not giving up. It’s giving your best and then leaving space for what comes next. Telling doubt, fear, and worry that they can back the hell up, because you got this. And even if you don’t, resting in the fact that you will be okay.

xo, Aisha Beau